20100622

Can I just start over?
How does a person learn to make sacrifices to make a relationship work? What happens when two people are very stubborn? When we both need to be right? I guess I should start learning how to pick my battles. I hate these fights. They are so pointless. We just get mad at each other for no reason. I want us to get better. There has to be a way to work out an easy, stead relationship. I don't like the anger. We need to learn how to get along. He tries to make it up to me by being silly and talking like a little kid, while it's cute and makes me smile; I don't like that we have to be so argumentative. It's just disappointing that for nearly four months we didn't argue at all and now that's all we do. I know relationships are hard work but are they supposed to be this difficult?
The closer I get to basic, (wow, this is an old entry) the more afraid I get. I need some guidance of some sort. I don't know who to talk to or where to turn. I need a break. I'm afraid to finish school because finishing is going to mean moving on to another step of my life and that is incredibly intimidating to me. It feels like every step I take forward, I try to push myself backwards twice as far. Oh well. I guess I can try and work it out on my own.