September 21st, 2009.
Life as I have ever known it has flipped itself around on me. I was drawn to church yesterday and it has changed everything. I've always been a Christian, always believed, always tried to preach to others a little but now I can say with pride that I've been saved. Life hasn't really been the easiest thing for me and my faith has been shaken many times. I've been dealing with anger and bad decisions for too long. I finally gave it all up.
My church does alter calls and I went up and got down on my knees and prayed. I think this time I'll have the strength to survive the world the way it is. And to be able to make a change. I've reclaimed my virginity, walked away from a lot of toxic relationships, and I've put my full faith in Jesus. Now I can't quote verses and I don't know all the songs we sing every Sunday but I know what I believe and I know that those beliefs will always guide me. I thought it would take a lot to break old habits but with Christ in my life it's like there's no problems at all.
Tomorrow I start a new program for school. It's work at your own pace and I should hopefully have my diploma in a few months. I can't say I know what I'm going to do with my life because I don't. I know I want to go to college for criminal justice and psychology and I want to be a police officer. I also know that my best friend and I are going to try and start a foundation that helps give girls a way to reach out. I was abused and I know the terror and uncertainty that comes with the decision to speak out about it. I know programs like this already exist but there are not enough local programs and I feel that I can put a good Christian spin on things. I want to see girls get right with God and get put on the right path as soon as possible. I spent too much time miserable because of the things I was holding back. No girl deserves that and I want to help make that happen.
This is my life now. I live for no one but Jesus. I'm going to get to know the Bible and life is going to be different. It already is.
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