Old Posts Pt. 3

October 5th, 2009.

What do you see as important concepts that keep a relationship bonded together? My immediate response was communication, friendship, faith, teamwork, understanding, patience, and trust. I'm honestly a little amazed at my own response. I know nothing of love and marriage and stable relationships, I'm 17 and all I've seen growing up are shattered dreams and broken relationships. Where do we learn our ideals and values for love and marriage? This is the era of starter marriages and messy divorces. I personally don't agree with divorce, those vows are forever, but sometimes it has to be done. I'm afraid of relationships now because of what I see in the media and even in the town I live in. What has happened to happiness? I want to find that couple that has been together for fifty years and just talk with them. I want to ask them how they do it, what their secret is. I want proof that two people can start a life together and continue to grow as a couple for the rest of their lives. I want to know what that love feels like. But then, don't we all? Even looking outside romantic relationships, what has happened to trust and loyalty? I could count the number of people I talk to on a weekly basis on one hand. There are incidents that occur in two seconds that ruin friendships that I have had for years. Is it just pure selfishness that makes it so easy for people to walk away? I have finally learned balance in life, and it seems once I have there is chaos everywhere else.
Pardon me for my lack of focus. Here's another thought. What does one do when on paper a person is statistically perfect but there's just not as strong as connection? Especially when there's another far from perfect person involved and the feelings there just keep getting stronger. How am I supposed to know that I'm looking at the rest of my life right in the face? How does anyone ever know?
I want to feel all the rushing emotions of love. I have always dreamed of marrying my high school sweetheart but I have never been able to remain in a stable relationship long enough to have one of those. I have learned that the reason for that is no ones fault but mine. I want to experience a connection with someone so strong that I feel a pull on my heart every time they say my name. These things exist for people.
Don't they?